May 7, 2026

Feeling a lot of anxiety today, particularly when it comes to thinking about my wedding. I'm so excited to be married, but I am really not excited about the whole wedding planning process. I just know it's going to be a pain, and expensive, and I also hate being perceived...plus I keep thinking about how this will likely set us back to buying a house for like, another two years...ugh. I want to be excited, but I just can't be.

There's also a lot of construction happening right next to where I live. They're building a five-story apartment building with storefronts, and they're also expanding the power grid right next to our place, so it's been just nonstop noise and movement and mess outside. It's so unpleasant, and I feel trapped. I wish I could just move to another country and live in the woods in a small town.

Sorry for the mini-spiral. Hope you're all well.